The Irony Of Love

The bravest thing a girl can do is to be happy for the man he loves happy with someone else.

Isn't it ironic? Loving someone who loves someone else, unfair right? All we ever wanted was to be loved back by the people we love. It's not that difficult to do, right? Maybe that's what love is all about. Accepting reality and moving on. They said, love is a matter of giving and taking it back. But in reality, not all you give is given back to you. You don't always get what you want, that's true. Love is such a fatal thing. It can make you happy then send you to the depths of hell (well, not literally). You won't understand unless you experienced it.

Pretending that you are not affected is hard. Pretending that you are happy for the both of them is heartbreaking. Either way, you chose to take a step backward for the sake of their happiness. Sacrificing your own feelings just to see the love of your life happy with someone else. How pathetic. Even though we didn't want this to happen, there's nothing else we can do. The decision has been made. You love him, he loves someone else. And there you are, sitting in the corner of the room, crying for what seems like an endless cycle. Then the regrets come to life. The I-wish-I've-never-met-you was usual. You blame him for the heartbreak you are facing now. You blame him for making you fall in love with him. I think the very reason for all of this is that you expected. One small thing that is done, you immediately assume. And when you got your heart broken, all the mistakes were blamed unto him. It was also your mistake you've got to experience through that. You are responsible for your own actions. I think it's not right to think that you wish you've never even met him because somehow, he once made you so happy that it makes you wanna say: Living is wonderful. Expectation, it just ruins everything.

In order to grow up we need to experience pain. One thing I learned about love is that, if you are not ready to catch someone, then don't make him/her fall for you. Love can make a person go crazy. Now the important thing is, you have to be wise on whom you choose to give your love. Our heart is precious and fragile. We have to take care of it because when the right guy/girl comes in our way, we will be able to give them unconditional love that they were longing.

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xx, ThePoseidonKid

Facing Heartbreak

Dear Guy that I loved so much,


I wish I can just delete all the memories I've had with you. I wish every time you cross my mind I would not feel any pain, even the slightest ache. I wish I could talk to you and act as if nothing ever happened between us. But unfortunately, I can't. Or today isn't the day all these things would happen. It's hard to let go of someone that once meant the whole world to you. 

You made me feel like you really like me and then suddenly leave me hanging. Why would you blame it all on me when all I ever did was to love you as much as I could? Do you think I have no idea on what was happening between you and your ex? Do you think I didn't know all the things you said and did to her? And now you're making me feel like I'm the one who cheated on you? Let me tell you, that's complete and utter bullshit. I know everything but I was too blind to believe. I just didn't tell you because I was too afraid that if I did tell you or even ask you about it, all the rumors that I heard about you would turn out to be true. I didn't let you know that I was affected because I was thinking that if ever I brought this topic on you, we would have tons of arguments and maybe end up losing you. I kept it to myself but still the outcome was the same. And now I've come to the realization that it's a shame I've let myself hurt by the same guy twice. 

In my point of view, I think you didn't deserve a girl who loved you unconditionally and whole-heartedly even if you've hurt her a thousand times without you knowing it. How can you be so numb to not even notice every suffering and pain I was dealing with when I was still blinded by the idea of being in love with you? Tell me, was it easy? Telling all those cute stuffs to her and don't mean every little thing you say?

I'm not being bitter about you.. I just want to let my feelings out. After all, I deserve this. I'm just done. I don't want to be, I miss "us" but I'm just getting hurt. I'm going to make myself get over you, no matter how hard it is, no matter how much it hurts, I need to move on. As much as you'd like to start talking to someone else, to forget about you, I'm going to do everything but to break the ignorance of my thick skull and to forget how much you meant to me, how happy you once made me. Soon enough, you'll just be a distant memory. I can't say I'm over you, but soon enough, I will be. It's hard since you were once so important to me, a part of my daily routine. I'm wasting time wishing and thinking, wondering and pondering, I'm wasting time, I wasted time. But I'm done. Sincerely and genuinely, I want to be done.

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xx, ThePoseidonKid