Dear You,

Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako kaaffected sa mga nangyayari ngayon. Feeling ko nga wala kang pakialam eh, na okay lang sayo to. Mas moody ka pa sakin eh, alam mo yun? Kahapon ang saya saya pa natin, pinakilala mo pa ko sa pamilya mo, tapos ngayon ano na? Parang isinantabi mo lang yung mga nangyari kahapon. Kaya ka ba nagkakaganyan dahil dun sa sinabi ng adviser natin? My Gawd naman. Hindi ko rin namang ginustong banggitin niya yun sa harap ng mga classmates natin eh. Kung yun ang dahilan, wag mo naman sanang ibuntong sakin yang pagkainis mo. Akala ko okay tayo eh. Nung di mo pagsagot sa tanong ko kanina, ayos pa sana sakin yun eh. Pero nung pag-iwan mo sakin kaninang uwian? Kagaguhan. Ano ba naman sana yung magsabi ka lang man na uuwi ka ng maaga kesyo ganito, kesyo ganyan. Hindi mo kailangang iwan ako dun na parang di mo ko obligasyon. Nakakainis ka na ha. Napakainsensitive mo. Kung may problema tayo, sabihin mo! Hindi yung bigla bigla ka na lang di magpaparamdam, nakakap*ta eh. KUNG ALAM MO LANG KUNG GAANO AKO NASASAKTAN NGAYON. Siguro nga wala ka talagang pake kahit di na tayo magkaayos. Sige! Dedma kung dedma! Napapagod na ako, lagi na lang ako yung nanunuyo kung nagkakaproblema tayo. Ang gusto ko lang naman mag-effort ka kapag dumadaan tayo sa mga ganitong sitwasyon. Ipakita mo na ayaw mo kong mawala sayo!

Stupid Day

Hi, I hope nobody else can read this. I have no one to talk to now, so I'm just going to vent out my feelings here because it's so much easier and I think I can express my feelings more. Wow! It's been a long time since I've posted something in my blog. And because of that I have decided to write down all the good and bad things that happen everyday. So anyway, this day totally sucks. Do you freakin' know how much it hurts to see your loved one being linked to someone else? Especially when it's his ex-crush? OMG I swear to gawd I felt like crying. It was lunch time and we (I was with my friend, Gian) just got back from somewhere. And right after I stepped inside our room, I overheard my classmates linking him with her. It just hurts so freaking much. So I asked my friend to accompany me in the ICT room because the view in our room was unbearable to watch. The worst part is he acts like he doesn't care about my feelings. He didn't even approach me this whole day and I've been expecting a call or text from him saying sorry about what happened earlier, that it wasn't his intention to do that and guess what? He didn't and that just made the situation worse. I know that he loves me, I just wish sometimes he'd act like he really do. If he doesn't want to talk to me, fine! I wont talk to him either. I've had enough.