But she arrived and held us apart
I'm wondering how you can't see the way my eyes light up when you smile
You never notice how I stop and stare
Whenever you pass by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
Why can't you see that she'll never gonna love you the way I want to
You're a tiny piece of my heart,
Like a song I tried to sing;
A note I cannot hit
And as the tiny piece floats away from the whole
I decided it's time for me to wave goodbye
But as you pass by
Under the silhouette
Of the open sky
Still, I looked with great desire of how I simplify
The wish I can't deny of you to be mine.
This is a poem I wrote about a guy whom I loved since the day I met him and is inspired by his unfair treatment of love. This poem is actually composed of some lyrics to the song Invisible by Taylor Swift, which in some instance, is actually the best song to describe my feelings for him. Of all the boys that have passed and I have met throughout my life, I do not know exactly why it has to be him, to be the one holding my heart up until now. And I hate the fact that I'm still hoping for him to be mine. Yes, it's true, there is always going to be that one person you wish you could be with, even after knowing that person doesn't want to be with you. But isn't it unfair to be hoping for that one guy who broke my heart when there is someone out there who's honestly and unconditionally loving me with all his heart? I cannot hurt him, I cannot leave him hanging on and still hoping for me because he somehow changed all his wrong-doings and bad attitudes just so he can look good in my eyes. So that I can love him as much as he loves me. I feel bad for myself, I feel like I'm betraying him... When I'm with him, all I ever think about is my first love. I feel guilty for letting him fall for me. Or maybe, I'm just confused. To be able to love someone truly, you have to let go of your past first. And that's what I'm gonna do now. Move on. Accept the reality and smile.
A simple crush somehow grew to an unforgettable love. Somehow I thought that he is my first love because no matter how badly he has hurt me, no matter how much tears and pain he has put me through... I will always love him and he will always be in my heart. Now that's a promise of forever and always.
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xx, ThePoseidonKid
